Unasked For
11th May 2024 (amended 22nd June 2024)

Feelings for you came unasked for, unexpected,
the care you have for the world seeping into me,
when I needed it most,
I tried desperately to convince myself it was friendship,
willing maybe a blindness, that was clumsy, and hurting,
…yet so, as I yearned for it so much.

The night you asked if she knew,
and spoke of The Blue Nile,
I almost believed then, that we were as guilty as sin,
my world already in a spin,
trying to maintain a truth, to protect, not to betray,
my actions, not standing up, in the light of day.

I’m sorry,
I acted as I only know how, as I only could,
and maybe I was wrong, mistaken (as you say),
or maybe it was that you correctly, pulled away,
the truth
…it doesn’t matter anyway.

Now is empty,
and as much as my heart disagrees,
I know this is how it should be,
still, I am left yearning for our friendship,

…for you, …and for me.

Vending Machines,
Tokyo